So today, as I was writing in my prayer journal, I felt the Holy Spirit whisper... "Share this" Well, I wasn't really sure what He meant or if I was just hearing things... (because I do...hear things that is :) ) I thought about my blog, that I totally neglect, and then I thought... Nah.... and I let it go.
Well, my sweet precious "Soul Sista" in Christ (that is what we call each other) ,Mischa, just called me. We were talking about Jesus (which is what we almost always talk about in some way or the other), and I said.. "Oh, I've got to read you what I wrote in my prayer journal this morning".....well, even after I said that, she kept talking...cause that's what she does. :) I listened and then I talked. I told her about Bro Brian's message at church yesterday...which I had the pleasure of hearing twice... (side bar..if that one is on the web site, you have got to hear it...it was a good one!! www.rbconline.net) And then I remembered, My Journal.... I said, "Listen, I want to read you this..." So, I read it... She just sat there a minute and she said.. "Are you going to post this on your blog?" That was so strange. First of all, she hasn't mentioned my blog since the last time I posted on it forever ago, and second of all, it is personal and she is not the kind of person that says "Hey, why dont you tell the world that!!" I laughed... I said "Wow, well, that was from the Holy Spirit." I proceeded to tell her what I felt when I finished writing it this morning.... So here is my journal entry for today, January 9, 2012.
I am so full of the Lord! So sure of who I am and who I want to be in Him! Making my second loaf of bread this morning! :) There is just something spiritial about making your own bread. God is in it! About using those raw ingredients and using your hands to kneed the dough and form it. Reminds me of Christ and our Creator. Who took the raw ingredients and created us! His world that He saw as good!
Sammy's first class was last night. I was so proud of him. So proud to be sitting there beside him. To be the one that gets to call him mine. So thanful to my Creator that when He created Sammy, He had me in mind!
We had a great talk last night. A talk about what God wants for us and our family. What He wants us to do for His kindom, We are in total agreement that it is more, that it is big! Not big in the sense that we will BE something big, but big in the sense that we will have to change our life and make BIG changes for our family. We just want desperately to listen to God's voice and to have no doubts that what we are doing and where we are going is divine and is from Him!!
Lord, I want so much for my life and for my children. Help me with the homeschooling. Show me what matters and what is important. Help me not to worry about little things, but just to make sure the important things are being learned. Show me where the teachable moments are throughtout my day.
The fear lies there in the waiting. I can feel it like a creature in a cave, just waiting to pounceand destroy. Will I ever be completely delivered from the fear? Will I ever have complete peace and assurance? The doubt and the quesions are almost paralizing! Save me from it Lord!!
I desperately want to know more of you Lord. I want to know Jesus! Reveal yourself to me in a mighty way and to my children! Teach us who you are!! Emmerse yourself in our home and our family!! You are welcome here Lord!
#47 Pens that write on paper
#48 Sweet curls on Parkers head
#49 flour that turns into bread!
#50 finger nail clippers
#51 Angels
#52 Quiet time with Samantha
#53 making breakfast for my children
#54 another day to teach them
Help me never to complain or be disappointed or wallow in self-righteousness or unforgiveness! Help me to always remember who I was before Christ and who I would be with out Him!!
(the numbered things are my list of things I am thankful for...my goal is 1000 in 2012 thanks to www.aholyexperience.com)
Not sure who this was for, but God wanted you to hear it!
